Lullaby

Ellie just 2 weeks after she came into our home...

We got our daughter almost 2 years ago.  When she first came into our home, she was quiet, scared, and not used to people showing her affection.  She seldom smiled, never laughed, and looked quite honestly scared to death.  One of the hardest parts about mothering a child who has been neglected, is feeling rejected when they do not want to cuddle.  Ellie did not want to be rocked, soothed or comforted.  She had spent 11 months in a car seat.  I sometimes wonder if there were days that she was not hugged, kissed or even held.  What is a mom suppose to do when her child does not desire these things?

How often are we as God's children like this?  I am often independent, too set in my own ways to acknowledge His, and often think that the plans I have for MY life are best.  I wonder if God's heart is broken when He sees that I do not want to be rocked, soothed or comforted by my Father?

Ellie recently cheesin' it up

Fast-forward two years later.  Today I was (attempting) rocking Ellie for her nap.  She did not fall asleep, but for a few moments there was a tender peace, a comfort, and ultimately joy as she would glance up at me to see if I knew she wasn't asleep, then smile and close her eyes.  Too many times I neglect to slow down long enough to hold her in my arms and rock her to sleep, yet our Father is NEVER too busy.  We only need to climb into His lap and REST!